well..,

I went and did the test.  lets just say it’s not the most pleasant thing I’ve ever been through.  the radiologist kept asking questions like “have you ever been told you have endomitriosis?”  “did you have a c-section?” then she told me the one thing that made my heart sink.  the cysts on my ovaries arent filled with fluid, they are of mass, which means..,  heavy sigh.  I have to say honestly, I’m not sad for me.  I know God has a plan.  And every day, I am just reminded that all things are for his glory!  but when I went to get pizza for the kids, and I was sitting there, i almost cried.  I’m sad for my kids.  sad that this may make them afraid.  sad that I might miss something important.  but then, I reminded myself that God is in control, and that we are taking each day as it comes.  I taught at VBS tonight, and all of the camera’s died.  all 11. dead.  yeeesh.  One positive is, I look into each kids face, not as a passing moment, because I’ll have another, but actually looked at the color of their eyes, the excitement, the boredom.   I just got a beautiful email from Sara.  I am the most blessed person on the planet.  the sunset was beautiful tonight.

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