so I heard the “c” word today
July 17, 2008
honestly, it didn’t surprise me. there’s still a lot of tests to do to determine the extent, which a nurse from the rhuems office described with articulate crass. I am not afraid as I write this. I was worried for my husband and his reaction, but he is founded in the 4:8 principle at the moment, and we’ve agreed that God is in control and we’ll just keep moving forward. (the robinsons) I have a very rare autoimmune disease called dermatomyositis. I’d like to explain that here but there are so many variations regarding a definition that I am going to merely tell you what I usually say. (this is the mda version) my body’s immune system attacks the blood vessels that supply my muscles & organs, damaging them. this makes me weak, and sometimes very painful. I feel like I have the flu all the time. Ricky Bell from the Tampa Bay Bucaneers died from it awhile back and there was a TV movie. This however, is no movie. There is no swelling music, and I am not noble, nor a hero. I refuse to be defined by my illness, so I rarely share it with anyone. Unfortunately the illness is a lead in to cancer, so thus, I am not surprised. It must not be serious as it took 3 days to call, and the nurse was very reassuring. I know God is in control. I know that he is using me in the lives of these kids. If he chooses to use me in another way, ok. Maybe God chose to use Matthias in a different way, and we just never will know what it was. It’s time to gird up for the journey. Time to be prayerful and ready for the fight.
